Look like something out of Alice in Wonderland.

I'm a little confused right now.
Humanities is better than it was in the beginning of the year, but not enough for me to want to stay..Should I try harder to convince my parents to let me go to CHS? Or at least shadow? They're dead set against me going, so idk if I should. But as weird as it feels to say this, I've gotten attached to the people there, and I'm not talking specifically about Tom. I mean my friends other than my boyfriend, like Jovita, Sanjay and Nancy. I won't see them anymore, and I know there's always the "If you really want to keep your old friends you'll keep in touch" but there's only so much you can talk about, and it just gets awkward after a while, and inevitably you grow apart. We don't have Travers anymore, and Siggy's not so bad anymore, she's a real nice person actually.

But maybe Humanities hasn't actually gotten better and I've just gotten used to how shitty it is. There's always that possibility, isn't there? I really don't know if I'm better off here or there, but my parents won't let me shadow. I'm forbidden to go there, they find every possible excuse to keep me in Humanities. Granted, I'm not as much of a failure at writing anymore, and I've got smarter friends, but how do I know this is such an amazing place compared to my home school? I really want to shadow, I mean, if I go there and find out that PHS is better then OKAY, I'll be fine with that, but I don't know what it's like there, and I don't know anyone that's had experience at both schools. Julia's leaving, but that's after this year.

Oz, Jess and you other PHS kids, any suggestions?